Where to begin?

Disappear
Disappear
Higher
Higher
Into the air
Slowly disappear
No, no longer here
--A Perfect Circle, "Vanishing"

There is a phrase we use: “disappearing act.” Coined from the clichéd antics of two-bit illusionists, it has also come to describe the act of hiding or one’s characteristic pattern of withdrawal from the rest of the world. Would that were so in my case.

I learned relatively recently that I am, quite literally, disappearing. They (my employers) aren’t sure why. They can’t tell me how long I have. They can’t tell me anything, really, but they’re very concerned.

So. Do I wait around to see what happens, or do I throw myself heedlessly into harm’s way in search of a quick and certain end? I must think on this a bit more.

I’m not very open about my life, or my feelings – so I find it quite strange that I’m willing to share such things here – but if nothing else, if I make no other difference in this world, these words at least will offer definitive proof that I did in fact once exist.